God Heals the Darkness

This is my comfort in my affliction, That Your word has revived me. Ps 119:50

Deep inside the heart of many women there is a darkness that lies untouched. There is a hurt that has been left unattended, praying it will heal on it’s own if ignored. It will not be ignored. Instead it lies within, waiting for the right moment and then the memories rises up from the depths of the darkness to hurt once more. I know this hurt for I have been there. I know other women experience it for they have shared their stories. They have trusted me with the darkness of their souls, the hurts that scream out MP900438388_thumb.jpgto be heard.

Healing began years ago for me, but it’s only been recently that I have fully understood where and how the healing came.

I spent years trying to ignore, forget, forgive and pray my way beyond the painful memories that would not stop playing across my mind. I would seek counsel, read books, attend Bible studies and pour myself into doing good works. I would do all the things I thought I should, be a good wife, mother, friend and church attendee. I would pray, read my Bible and pray some more. I tried pursuing so many things-even God-in order to forget. Often I was left feeling empty and in the end the hurt would still be screaming for attention. Why could I not have that personal loving relationship so many seemed to have? What did I have to do to silence the pain? What did God expect of me? Why wasn’t God answering my prayers to forget?

Your testimonies also are my delight; {They are} my counselors. My soul cleaves to the dust; Revive me according to Your word. Psalm 119: 24-25

The answer to my questions could be answered with just one answer. Know God. The problem was I didn’t really know Him. I knew about Him . I knew what others had told me about Him and I had even read about Him in the Bible, but I didn’t KNOW Him. I didn’t understand who He was or who He is. I didn’t know God experientially. I had only learned about God through others. I only thought I knew Him.

Healing came when I began to know God for myself. It began when I learned to study and understand God’s word for myself. Do you know what that meant? God spoke to me, Sharon, His beloved daughter. He spoke directly to me through His word and not through someone else.

God’s word began to come alive and every time I would read it I began to see something new. Truth began to penetrate my heart. The lies I believed about myself, my past and my God were exposed. God began to reveal Himself to me. He opened up my eyes to see His character, His love and His power. He began to show me who I was, and who I am because of Christ. He told me how precious I am to Him, how much He loves me and will always love me.

He began to help me see His plans and purposes for my life. God began to show me how He would use all the circumstances in my life for His glory. He would not waste anything. He wouldn’t waste anything good or evil. He could use my wrong choices, and the painful memories.

Oh precious sisters if I could ask one thing I would ask that you study God’s word and know it for yourself. Learn to study and allow God’s word to open up to you. Allow it to teach you, reprove you and heal you. Stop doing Bible studies that do all the work for you and study the Word for yourself.

It is only in knowing God that healing comes, and by know I mean you KNOW Him not just about Him. You need to know the God who is, the God of truth, not the God you think He is. Once we know God and study His words for ourselves then true deep healing comes. Oh how I long for each of you to experience the personal word of God spoken directly into your hearts.

If you don’t know how to study for yourself email me, I’d be happy to help! Or you can check out these links  A Guide to Inductive Bible Study or How to Study the Bible in 28 Days.

“You are My witnesses,” declares the LORD, “And My servant whom I have chosen, So that you may know and believe Me And understand that I am He. Before Me there was no God formed, And there will be none after Me. Isa 43:10

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